Me

It is weird how we judge people based on so many superficial things- hair colour, skin colour, height, whether they are loud or quiet, rich or poor, gay or straight, male or female. I don't want to be judged by any of these things and nor do I ever want to be accused of judging anyone else on the basis of these things. I want to know people and to love people. I want me to know me for what is on the inside. Here it is.

I love to learn, it is the love that almost sums up every other aspect of my being, and one of the first true realisations I ever made about myself. I love to know things, to recognise things, to have that huge amount of power that comes with knowledge all stored within me. My thirst for knowledge is insatiable and I hate chosen ignorance. I lose respect for people who have the opportunity to know so much, yet apathy riddles them. I want to help people who don't have the opportunity to be educated. They have a certain knowledge, a knowledge of instinctual survival that I have not known.

I love the people close to me. I love to laugh with these people, talk with these people, challenge them, love them, support them. I love the people far from me, the people I do not know, for there is so much to learn from every person in this world.

I love hugs, long embraces. I love kisses and I love the security of knowing that there is someone there for me.

I am not religious. I hate organised religion. I am a very spiritual and intuitive person. I see ghosts, I do not mess with the Occult or tarot, I believe in something although I am not sure what. I believe in challenging everything you and others think. I believe in a truth. I believe in freedom. I believe in democracy and a free market economy. I am liberal and believe that all people are equal and perfect- no person is more or less perfect than anyone else. I believe in welfare for those who need it and believe that it is a responsibility of every citizen to support their fellow human beings who struggle.

I believe in choice. I believe that every life has a worth, but I do support legal euthanasia and abortion. I do not support the death penalty under any circumstance. True suffering is living with no freedom, with no priveleges and no hope for the remainder of the natural life. I believe in this with every ounce of my being. That is not to say that if someone hurt someone I loved I wouldn't want to kill them with my own hands- but I would regret it later. I do not believe in violence or physical harm under any circumstance, unless it is in self-defence.

I believe that words, both spoken and written, can change the world and one person can make a difference. I have an opinion on everything and am not afraid to voice it.

I would die for my right to free speech, my right to be free, my country if it was under threat and for my family and friends.

I know pain. I know what it is like to be hurt so deeply and irrevocably that the scabs will never become scars and never heal. The scab will always be knocked off. I know what it is to feel the world is hopeless, to be alone, to have no where to turn. I know what it is to feel your life has no worth. I also know that there is a light shining even in the darkest place. I believe you can survive.

I want to change the world. I want to help people, to be enlightened and to enlighten. I want to make a difference and show the truth.

This is me. I have weaknesses and faults, I have had celebrations and commiserations. I have lost and I have found. I have felt pain, seen pain, felt warmth and love, seen warmth and love. I constantly struggle to reconcile myself with the fact that I am me and this is it, this is all of me, just as I am.